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THE GREY AREA

… and here they come, these days they come.

These days when you wake up feeling sad without any apparent reason, when you don’t like the sun, neither the blue sky, the clouds or the rain and everything bothers you.
These days, when you feel like suffocating under a mantle of indefinite melancholia and still you don't understand the reason of all of this.
These days when you would like to push the famous self-destruction’s button, once again without any reason because nothing has changed since yesterday when everything seemed perfect.

These days when you read what you did write a week before and you feel such a perfect idiot and a fool.
You can not bear to see such an amount of crap about peace, love and understanding, like in those pseudo “new age manuals” for beginners.
And you ask yourself: "Who do hell do you think you are?"

These days that come without a warning, without knockin’ at the door, that stay for a while and then they go… always leaving a definite mark.

And I wonder why of all this?
Why these moments are hitting me so much?
Where are the famous detachment and acceptance I’ve been constantly talking about?

Only one thing is clear to me. Even though I am aware that life is a grey area yet I am living as though there is just a black or white area.

I still see life as made only of two clearly and separate sectors when instead, inside myself, I perfectly know that it is everything different... but knowing this doesn't help me if I am unable to live according to this truth.

Yes, the path toward acceptance is hard and difficult, most of all for someone like me, someone who knows he is living in a grey area but yet he is able to see black and white only!

ANYWAY, PEACE LOVE & REVOLUTION ... FOREVER.

Planet Earth, where time is only illusion

© – Copyright Claudio Romano

Speachless Part II

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Naomi Campbell throws £1m birthday bash

Thursday, May 18 2006, 12:48 BST - by Matthew Houghton
Naomi Campbell will celebrate her 36th birthday with a £1 million party in Dubai.The three-day party will take place in the seven-star Burj Al Arab hotel and Naomi will hire out all 18 floors.The celebrations are set to begin on Sunday and each day will have a different theme. Sunday will be 'All White', Monday (Noami's actual birthday) will be 'Hip-Hop' and Tuesday is 'Brazilian Samba'.Among the A-list guest to attend the party are David and Victoria Beckham and fellow supermodels Eva Herzigova and Linda Evangelista.

And now may someone explain to me how I can avoid to get angry and totally pissed off when I have to read such kind of news, knowing what is happening out there, in the real world.

Just I wish that the food they are going to swallow would be poisoned and that everyone of them will suffer from heavy diarrhoea, so that all these people may get an inch of awareness (even if for just 1/1000) of what kind of sufferance and pain have to go through so many children all over the world, for the lack of basic cares, water and food.

So, with all my heart, I just would like to say all these people my heartfelt wishes with those simple words…. FUCK OFF, YOU ASSHOLES!


Peace, love and revolution.

Planet Earth, May 20th, 2006

SPEACHLESS

Cheney and Halliburton Hold Title - Top Earners In Iraq

By Evelyn Pringle
There has never been an investigation into Cheney's involvement in awarding Halliburton no-bid contracts making the company the number one war profiteerer in Iraq. Apparently people have forgotten about the March 5, 2003 e-mail between the Army Corps of Engineers and a Pentagon employee that stated the contract "has been coordinated w VP's office."
People also seem to have forgotten that Cheney continues to own stock in Halliburton. Stock that has risen in leaps and bounds since its former CEO moved into the White House and developed the most prolific war profiteering scheme of all time.
http://www.scoop.co.nz/stories/HL0603/S00448.htm



Paris loses her favourite ride
9.15AM, Thu Apr 20 2006

Paris Hilton has been banned from the family casino after losing her £100,000 Bentley in a poker game.
The hotel heiress has been barred from the Las Vegas casino by parents Rick and Kathy Hilton, who are worried that she will squander her fortune.
http://www.itv.com/news/1956608.html


THE RICHEST PEOPLE IN THE FUCKING WORLD:
1 William Gates III , USA, 50.0 billion US$
2 Warren Buffett USA, 42.0
3 Carlos Slim Helu Mexico, 30.0
4 Ingvar Kamprad Sweden, 28.0
5 Lakshmi Mittal India 23.5
6 Paul Allen United States, 22.0
7 Bernard Arnault France, 21.5
8 Prince Alwaleed Bin Talal Alsaud Saudi Arabia, 20.0
9 Kenneth Thomson & family Canada, 19.6
10 Li Ka-shing Hong Kong, 18.8
11 Roman Abramovich Russia, 18.2
12 Michael Dell USA, 17.1 www.forbes.com



AND I AM REALLY LEFT SPEACHLESS

PEACE, LOVE AND REVOLUTION

Fucked up Planeth Earch, April 23rd, 2549

CALL IT DEMOCRACY

“Call It Democracy” a song by BRUCE COCKBURN

Padded with power here they come

International loan sharks backed by the guns

Of market hungry military profiteers

Whose word is a swamp and whose brow is smeared

With the blood of the poor

Who rob life of its quality

Who render rage a necessity

By turning countries into labour camps

Modern slavers in drag as champions of freedom

Sinister cynical instrument

Who makes the gun into a sacrament-

The only response to the deification

Of tyranny by so-called "developed" nations'

Idolatry of ideology

North South East West

Kill the best and buy the rest

It's just spend a buck to make a buck

You don't really give a flying fuck

About the people in misery

IMF dirty MF

Takes away everything it can get

Always making certain that there's one thing left

Keep them on the hook with insupportable debt

See the paid-off local bottom feeders

Passing themselves off as leaders

Kiss the ladies shake hands with the fellows

Open for business like a cheap bordello

And they call it democracy

And they call it democracy

And they call it democracy

And they call it democracy

See the loaded eyes of the children too

Trying to make the best of it the way kids do

One day you're going to rise from your habitual feast

To find yourself staring down the throat of the beast

They call the revolution

IMF dirty MF

Takes away everything it can get

Always making certain that there's one thing left

Keep them on the hook with insupportable debt

... AND I WONDER

Passing through the poor villages of Laos, Thailand, India and Cambodia I had the chance to see so many skinny children playing around those dusty roads and paths.
Some running after an old bicycle tyre, others playing football with a makeshift ball, other trying to learn the art of Thai boxing and so many running barefoot in the fields or swimming in a pond.
All of them shouting, screaming, laughing and sharing happiness.
Common western perception would make us think:
“Poor kids they do not have anything, yet they are still happy with nothing!”

Now I am here in a Bangkok internet shop, crowded with many fat kids the same age as the ones described before playing noisy video games, shooting at the screen and killing virtual human beings, many of them wearing a headphone all playing on his own.
Mc Donald’s, Pizza Hut and KFC apparently reached them, at least judging from their obesity it can be only an affirmative answer!
Playstation and technology reached them right?
So are they supposed to be luckier than those poor country kids?

But I wonder … who has more and who has really nothing?

What define happiness?
Sharing a laugh and a simple game, a glass of beer if you are an adult, with your friends or having the latest electronic gadget and isolating ourselves with it?

The answer is there for us to see.
“Them” they want us to believe happiness is depending on what we have, on what we posses and what we buy but is so much false.
Happiness is only a glimpse, a moment, but is the simple act of sharing a moment with another human being.
Do not let “Them” fool us anymore, happiness is not depending on what we buy, is depending in who we are, and the simpler we live more chance we have to reach it, even for just a moment!
As we shall never forget that everything is impermanent in this world!

…………………………………………………………………………………………………………

Reading the newspapers is becoming a harder task every day, is so difficult to stomach some kind of news they are reporting.
At times I am so fed up to read about sick politics, corruption, war, killings, tortures and more awful things that happens around the world.
Then there are news such as this who one can only hope to be on some April’s fool edition but unfortunately are not.

On “The Nation”, 28th March 2006 edition, I had the chance to read about … space tourism!
Briefly it is reported that “… now the private sector is offering space travel, tailored to the super rich... Over the past few years, three tourists have paid a reported 20 million US dollars each to ride aboard a Russian rocket to the orbiting international space station”.

I am left really speechless, just I can think about the starving kids in Africa, the poor all over the world and I can only vomit reading such news.

Where the fuck the world is going? How could someone not be furious and angry after reading such bullshit?

Makes you sick, doesn’t it? But what it makes those “super rich” people themselves is this: detached from what the rest of us live in – the real world. What does it take to bring them back?
I would like really like to take all those “super rich” people and show them the reality of this world, how so many people are struggling to live without food, water and medicines.

I really want to cry and shout but I feel so much powerless, tired and fed up.
Is the world such a rotten hopeless place?

With the small energy that I still have I just wish is just a nightmare and that I could wake up tomorrow and find a beautiful and peaceful world without injustice!

Peace, love and freedom

Poor Planet Earth, April 5TH , 2549

© - copyright Claudio Romano

THE ILLUSION OF BEING FREE

Here I am back from a visit in the Lao Popular Democratic Republic, a supposed freedomless communist state.
I came out alive, would you believe it? So are the communist not so bad?
Would you believe it?
Vientiane is a nice city, rather clean and quiet without tanks and armed forces around.
The visit in the countryside, in the villages of course did show me what I was expecting, lot of poverty but not so much different of what I have seen just days before in outskirts of Udon Thani, in the free and capitalist land of Thailand!

So what? Someone would tell me that at least in Thailand people are free while in Laos people they are under oppression, right?
Freedom?

Let’s have a look at both countries or, much better, at both systems.
Both they have a very rich and corrupted elite, while the grass-root people and the farmers suffer in poverty.
They have become so accustomed in being exploited and neglected that now they can accept anything just for the sake of being able to survive.

So what is the difference between those two countries which are representing apparently opposite systems?
Illusion is the only real difference.
In Thailand people live and still believe to be free, they have the illusion to be free like anyone in the so called “free liberal world” but it is just an illusion, of course.
Try to shout against “Them”, those who have the power, against those who control the economy, those who control everything such as the big multinationals… and then you tell me.
People are free until they do what “They” tell them to do.

At least in Laos people know when they are allowed to speak and when not!
They perfectly know where are the boundaries set by those who rules, they are not fooled by the illusion of being free.
In the so called “free world”, you never know when and how much you will pay, but be sure that if you do something against the wrong people, you will pay.
Freedom? Mind you, I have kindly been asked to abstain to express my opinion by a thai blog (http://www.thai-blog.com/) because of my political views, many were fearing the blacklisting of the blog.
Is this freedom? And this did not happen in Laos but Thailand.

In every country, in every nation and land you are free if you are rich and never if you are poor, if you are poor you just have to remain silent under those above you, being in a communist or capitalist country… not any difference.

But I do repeat, at least in Laos people are not living under any illusion. They may not be free and they know it, they know who is “Them” and what “They” want, they are perfectly aware of it. Instead the multitudes in the capitalistic countries are not even having such awareness, just they continue living in an illusion, the illusion of being free and they do not even know who are “Them”, who they have to fear!

Freedom? Yes, there seem to be some kind of curfew after 10 o’clock p.m. in Vientiane, not really a great thing but I wouldn’t really mind if the Thai government would do the same in Pattaya, or other places such some streets of Bangkok or Phuket.
This would surely limit people’s freedom but will surely prevent children prostitution, children exploitation and prevent hordes of western paedophiles being eternally on the prowl.
Vientiane was a good change in this respect. Limits on tourism would not be such a bad thing since tourism could bring some quick money but it really can harm and spoil a nation and its culture in the long run, and I do not have to look too far to have the proof of this.

So freedom is just an illusion, just a word.
The only way we could attain it is by freeing ourselves, from inside.
How? I do not know, is up to anyone of us, it is our personal path and search.
Someone may achieve it through meditation but there may be so many ways.
I do personally believe that starting from being detached from earthly and material matters could be a first step, we could start being free from the market laws and rules and this is the only way we can also hurt “Them”, where it only matters, their pockets and the dollar!
The first step to freedom is to stop being a customer and a consumer and to be a human being!
The second, in my humble opinion, is to get rid of fear, fear is paralyzing us from doing anything, from exploring life and from expressing ourselves and our opinions.
We are living in a world ruled by fear, “They” want us to live in fear in order to be always scared, docile and ready to follow the flock, never to ask questions and blindly believe in what “They” tell us.
This is happening in every kind of government or religion or organisation at any latitude.
Never question anything and be afraid of the consequences!
In the past slaves were having chains now the method is surely more subtle and kinder, but the final result is the same, we are not free as they were not free!

So what to chose between a red flag and the dollar?
There is surely a middle path in between and this middle path is just inside ourselves and it is where we only can find our freedom!

Peace, love and freedom!

I just would like to add one small last thing.
While wandering around Laotian cities and villages I was really surprised to see many young people and children.
I then thought that maybe, I repeat maybe, is not completely true that the communists are eating their children… or not?

Planet Earth, April 2nd , 2549

© - copyright Claudio Romano